Reality sucks, and I’m in the middle of it

April 22, 2009 at 7:00 am (blah)
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I’ve said it before and I’m saying it again, I cry a lot these days. I don’t know if it’s because I’m getting older or if I’m just suffering from bouts of depression and I need an outlet to release my emotions. But I have not realized I’ve become a crybaby. Reading the line “Help us save the wild cheetah!” made my eyes water, my nose itchy, and my heart contract in pity and pain. Reading about bear baiting, whale hunting, the crusade that led to the extinction of the passenger pigeons, and some of the other atrocities done against animals made me question the faith I have in the innate goodness of man. It seems I’ve always been naive and blind to reality, preferring to believe that no man could be innately bad. Now I don’t know.

Sometimes I hate the Net for containing the things I would rather not know about. But is ignorance really better than knowing the truth? I could have saved me some heartaches if I didn’t read about how some bears are tortured for their bile, or about how seals are killed for their fur. But I couldn’t stop myself from reading about them anyway. And every time I would always feel I’m partly responsible for what is happening. I wanted to make a difference, and I would. But I need to settle my life first, or there would be none of me left to do anything. I know it’s not a valid excuse. If one is wiling to help, no one could stop him from helping. But it’s all the excuse I’ve got for the moment.

In my pensive moments I would always wonder what would happen if I’d already died and I still have not done what I am supposed to do. Would I burn in hell, too?

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Definitely off the rocker

April 8, 2009 at 2:24 am (blah)
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If you knew doing something would depress you and make you feel miserable, you’d most likely, without doubt, avoid doing it again. But not me. There are some things that have made me miserable, but I’d willingly do them again and again and again, even if after each time I’d wonder to myself why I keep on torturing myself. Heck. Those “things” make me happy, despite the misery, so why give them up? Somewhere along the way I’ve accepted that I should learn to take the bad along with the good. If I can only be happy if I feel miserable and depressed at the same, then bring them all on.

Definitely crazy? I’m beginning to seriously think I might be. . . a little.

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Sleepless nights and happy endings

April 2, 2009 at 3:38 am (obsession)
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I am a sucker for happy endings. So after spending a sleepless weekend to finish Fated to Love You, I dug out my copies of the Asian TV series that I obsessed over in the not-so-distant past. I watched them again, for the nth time, and thought about the things that hooked me to them.

First, My Name is Kim Sam Soon. Now this is the first TV series that I really (emphasis on really) like. I love everything about it, from the plot to the actors to the perfectly logical way it ended. I already have a post about this series somewhere in this site. I just couldn’t seem to stop babbling and gushing about it every time after watching it. MNiKSS also has the best soundtrack. I can’t understand the lyrics, of course, but the music speaks to me despite the language barrier so it does not matter.

It Started with A Kiss. A romantic comedy that never fails to make me giggle every time. Xiang  Qin is always so clumsy, and she is not very sharp. But she is adorable. I love the way she and Zhi Shu interact with each other, and the way Zhi Shu tries hard to ignore his feelings for her. I also love the ending of the first season: Xiang Qin and Zhi Shu getting married in a wacky, unconventional way. It is the best ending of a series I’ve seen so far. I’m planning on spending the Holy Week watching They Kiss Again. I was a bit worried because the author of the manga died before the story was completed. But from what I read of the synopsis of the last episode, the ending is more than okay. I’m already very excited!

Coffee Prince. The title got the coffee drinker in me curious. Plus, I like Gong Yoo and Yoon Eun Hye. The theme also got me curious. It experimented with homosexual relationship. Though, everybody (the viewers) knows that Eun Chan is really a girl pretending to be a boy to earn a living. It is what makes it exciting, because I think this kind of relationship is still taboo in some societies. I want to watch this series again, but I couldn’t seem to find my copy. But then, I might have just borrowed the DVD from someone. Now, to buy or not to buy is not the question here.

Fated to Love You. Your typical romance story. Poor girl meets rich guy. She falls in love but he rejects her because he already loves someone. Something happened, guy no longer sees girl and realizes he loves her after all. I’ve seen and read about this story many times, but FtLY is special in that the main actors portrayed their roles very well. Some scenes required Ethan Ruan and Chen Qiao En to be comic one moment and serious the next, and they were able to do them perfectly. I was crying shamelessly when they lost the baby and Cun Xi had to sign the paper to save Xin Yi’s life, despite Xin Yi’s tearful plea for her baby’s life. That scene is a real tearjerker. I haven’t been pregnant but I can imagine I’d do the same – or more – if it would also happen to me. One thing I don’t like about the series is its ending. They could have chosen a more memorable ending for it. But all in all, I’m satisfied.

There are still other Asian TV series that I’m definitely watching again. But for now, during the long holiday at least, I’ll only be watching again the ones I’ve mentioned in this post. 😉

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